it's the highlight of my week!!!

we got a new computer! oh yay!! it's so beautiful!!!!!! this has completed the happiness of my summer as far as random electronics go. yay! i proclaim my COMPUTER Vayda because my cell phone doesn't need a name. so yay.

um, i'm in love with spike, and last night i had a dream that i met a guy named will who was just like him...um...yah...obessed much? yes i am.

other then that, my mind is completely not occupied. although it is full of buzzing pictures of martians and mars and other random things...huh. imagine that.

well school is a drag. it's waking up early, sitting and doing nothing, sometimes doing random activities but we haven't gotten into anything heavy enough to make school worth going to. although the choir teacher is ADORABLE, but that's about it...and mr. reid is freakin insane, but it happens.

my brain is like in another world right now. just every part of me is like shivering, but only like mentally. if i sit really still i'll feel my pulse in every part of my body, and i appericiate every beat. it feels like i'm a shell of a person right now and i don't know what to do to bring "maddie" back, it's like i'm a replacement for who used to be here. i don't know why...i don't know why i'm even saying this. but there ya go.

i want a new harry potter book, to see the rest of the buffy seasons, to have all my favorite fictional characters to come back, and to...well. you know how it ends.